At my midwife appointment today, there were still no signs of labor progression. I have been having strong contractions and lower back pain for the last 4-5 days, so I was really hoping that they have been doing something.
It is very easy to slip into despair at this point in a pregnancy. Even though I was late with both girls and I really shouldn’t have expected to deliver near my due date, it’s still hard to wait as each day and night passes. A repeat c-section is scheduled looming for me on November 19th if I don’t go into labor naturally. The last thing I want is to have surgery again! The thought really scares me and so worry continues to creep into my mind.
Here is what I am replacing that worry with:
This is the day the LORD has made; We will rejoice and be glad in it.”
Psalm 118:24
(Such a simple idea but much harder to put into practice when confronted with something unpleasant!)
I have a wonderful gift of spending this day with my children and my wonderful husband. I really don’t want to waste it on worrying and being cranky. So, although the worry and the crankiness keep trying to sneak up on me, I just continue to ask God for joy instead.
Art print: Phlox Divaricata, Close-up of Flower with Rain Dropsby Pernilla Bergdahl
